¤ milky moon ¤

We love each other he's just not a person who can stay faithful. We had a picture-perfect relationship but whenever he got drunk he would just lose control and get on the first thing that moved. I know it wasn't to do with me. Still, though, I'm not really sure what to do. I've never had a big break up before. First time I've been in love.

i'm a polyamourous for years and of course my partners too and it helps me a lot to manage my jalousy, my time, what i want, what i deserve.
Take time to think about it, you're so young, of course you have not this idea of the couple but sometimes it's the only way to conceive couple for some people (like me, like your ex even if i choose to consciously to have several partners and it's clear on the first day that i have several boyfriend not one plus one shot sex). My mother lived 20years with my father and he has hundred of sex affair but he return home every evening, he loved us and my mother, truely but have this need to seduce other women. She accepted this "very well" and she knew he really loved her. She quitted him to live in Paris with a new love he was devasted...so...

"I have sown untidy furrows 'cross my soul but I am still a coward"

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basically this sums up anything i might want to put in this thread

don't understand the quote


i attempted to a state cultural help for my further movie, i'm rejected
i have the "residence" one week with other writer to be mad at work but do not have the financial helps that would provided my journey in Lettonia...no work, no money, no movie...life's definitely sucks

You have me

My allergies/sinuses are making me miserable.

spring's joy

I just started full-time work as a volunteer at a job I should be getting paid for.

he graduated and we're not seeing one another anymore, which is for the best because he's addicted to drugs. and i was starting to do coke with him and it always upset me because some song or word would make the crashing all the more unbearable. what i miss most is how he would pick a movie, always a wonderful one, and then gently take my hand. we're staying friends, after all we didn't date all that long.

the last time i had sex with my ex boyfriend, i threw up. and that's how it should be. you're not supposed to be breaking up with someone just as the sex is getting really exciting because you care about one another so much, but he's right, i only would have wound up being more hurt if we had made an "honest" try. because there would never have been an "honest" try.

and now i'm back home and i am avoiding people and behaving boorishly. i had my wisdom teeth taken out and i'm trying to view it as the extraction of my self-pity and misery. let's hope it works. i'll be swollen and dazed and yes, it will hurt for a while, but soon it will be normal. because we don't even need wisdom teeth (or lovely joanna newsom fans named sean) in order to live.

that's a nice metaphor, have my wisdom teeth surgery in the down part of my broke-up-depression, and yes now it's sounds better

jfc. took my car in for a routine service and it turns out it needs like everything ever replaced and it's gonna be like $1000...WITHOUT the $700 timing belt which I will need to replace SOON...with nothing actually wrong with it (in terms of appearance or function) and I don't know enough about cars to know if the Honda guys are shitting me. DUDE THIS IS WHY I DRIVE A HONDA BECAUSE NOTHING IS SUPPOSED TO EVER BE WRONG WITH IT. Oh and just got a notice from BCBS (blue cross bullshit fyi) that my hospital-only plan (the only one I can possibly afford) premium is going up. I want to get rid of this plan too just on principle (ins. companies are the root of all evil and I'd rather not give them ANY money) but I'm afraid I will have a freak accident or something and be screwed. FML.

my7 best friends don't want to spend the night at my house because of my cunty mother. Charletta is poor and lives in a trailer, and my mother said something about how she should sell the cars and buy a house. And all of my friends do not want to come when my mother is here because she talks to me like i am a child and implies that she doesn't want any of my friends here.
what to do?

I just found out about this folk music camp in North Carolina like, last week, and it sounded really cool and I got all excited about it. But registration started in March, so all the classes I wanted are already full.
Oh well. It was kinda pricey and I wasn't sure how I was going to afford it anyway, especially with my stupid car costing me an arm and a leg!

I've been off for a few days and I've exhausted the potential of everything but absurdity to entertain me. I think I've played all the good games and watched or listened to all the good comedy. I need a hobby, only hobbies are boring as sin or frustrating because the actuality of the products of labour so rarely live up to one's expectations. Either that or a relationship, because those are always purely pleasant distractions and never result in emotional trauma, shame, guilt or regret.

life sucks just cos life is fuckingly sucking

How do you say "fuckingly sucking" in French?

yesterday i saw what was perhaps the perfect man for me, but i didn't have the courage to talk to him. i was in all of my feathers and quite self-conscious.

yesterday i saw what was perhaps the perfect man for me, but i didn't have the courage to talk to him. i was in all of my feathers and quite self-conscious.

Today I moved out of my favourite place in the world away from the people that have made this year of my life the best yet. I am sad.

But I do have a fridge that actually has food in now I'm home.